Today has been one of those days. I slept through my alarm clock, I rushed to get ready, I fed and kissed Lyon good bye, drove (errr, sped) to the client’s home just to realize that I left an important piece of equipment at home….turned around in circles only to arrive 3 minutes late to discuss the possibility of rescheduling because of the outdoor conditions.
I came back home frazzled and a little upset at how my morning had started.
This is tough…. I had always pictured parenthood + running a business to be the most ideal situation. I love working with my clients, and to be able to get away for a couple of hours away to do what I love and be back home in time for Lyon’s next feeding/next milestone/next smile…it seemed like such a dream job for any mother. But, I’m the first to admit that these days, the adrenaline has worn off and the perpetual loss of sleep and time during the day to “get work done” has become mountainous. I’m struggling to keep afloat, and our busy season has not even begun yet.
Here [insert light bulb moment ] is where I’m supposed to figure out the solution. Maybe if I re-evaluated and re-prioritized what I spent some of my day doing (journaling, cuddling with Lyon, dozing off at the desk), I could get more work done and not feel so behind all of the time. My mom called me today asking me how I was doing, and when I told her my new plan – she said, “It’s not that easy, Alice… It’s not supposed to be easy. That’s what makes being a mom so rewarding in the end.”
So, I guess it’s time to figure out a new plan. Or maybe accept the crazy idea that sometimes it’s better to go about life without a plan. Lyon’s growing so quickly, and well – it’s time to feed again. And time to go hold my sweet baby.