Well, we’ve made it 5 months, and what an amazing (and challenging and terrifying and rewarding) 5 months it’s been.
Our worlds changed when this little being entered our lives. I’m so infatuated by my baby that I’m staring at his baby monitor now as he snoozes in his crib. I can’t put into words how much I love him…
I’ve learned a few things on this little journey I like to call motherhood. And because I feel like these things I’ve learned will never be documented unless published (and maybe another new mother out there can benefit from reading this), I’ve decided to blog it. So, here it goes…
1) Guilt can kill you if you’re not careful. I leave for a session, I feel guilty. I tuck Lyon in a little early because I didn’t get any work done during the day & I need to catch up, I feel guilty. I let him play in his bouncy a little too long while the books he loves to read are right beside him, I feel crazy guilty.
My boy is growing up healthy and strong and smart and happy that his mom is doing everything she can to be there for him. I’m doing my best, and I can’t feel guilty for that.
2) My husband is an incredible, incredible dad. Watching Kyu with our baby makes me fall in love with him all over again. The man who claimed he’d never be a softy because he wanted to be a strong role model for our son gets sooooo much joy out of making Lyon smile. He loves being a father. You can spend years with a man and feel like you know everything about him, but until you witness him fathering his child – that’s when you feel your other half is complete.
3) Achieving balance is a never-ending. I can’t do everything myself. And there just aren’t enough hours in the day. There…. I grouped it all into one.
I never thought having a baby would be easy, buy wow. It’s really tough. My days and nights just kind of mesh in with one another and even though Lyon is a wonderful sleeper, I find myself with a mile long list of things to do that keeps getting longer and longer every minute of the day. Thankfully, Kyu and I were able to plan a little for our family and structure our businesses to where I can still do what I love but have enough help on the administrative, business, post-production side & not miss a beat with Lyon. Or so in theory…
4) It does get easier. I remember those first few weeks in Lyon’s life when all I thought about was how to nourish my child. That was my world… Do I continue breastfeeding even when I know it’s not working? How do I start pumping? How can I increase my milk supply? Is my child eating enough? And now, 5 months later – he’s in the 90th percentile in weight & height, and those difficult first weeks are a distant memory. My boy’s chunky and he’s thriving!
We’re in such a fun stage right now where Lyon smiles, babbles and loves to cuddle. It makes our job as parents incredibly gratifying when we see Lyon smile the biggest smile at us.
Our next challenges? Teething, solids & cereal, separation anxiety, first fevers, becoming mobile, baby proofing the house, achieving developmental milestones, and so on, and so on… It can only go downhill from here, right??
5) Time is so fleeting. It really is. Our friends and families told us this countless times, but we didn’t quite understand it until now.
We’re relishing in the moment, LOVING this time in our lives, and documenting as much of it as we can…
What I’ll learn the next few months, I’m sure lots. But right now, I know I just enjoy being Lyon’s mother way too much.
